So here we go again. I have a lot to say, and what better place to say it than on the interweb. Welcome to “Rock n’ Roll Therapy”. Don’t worry, I’m not the doctor, I am the one on the couch. So what is this all about?
I have been going through a lot of crap over the past few months. I mean a lot. So much so, I feel like a roll of Charmin, if you catch my meaning. So, I decided to let out my frustrations, fears, questions, rants, and melt downs for you, and the rest of the world to see. I am going to be honest. Brutally honest at times. I have decided to let it all out.
The oxymoron part of being honest is, I have to be discreet about the particulars of what is going on. There are other people, places and things involved and, out of respect, I will keep somethings from public view.
But, as for me personally, I will be honest. Be warned, it will be ugly. I am sure there will be profanity. But, like with any surgical procedure, it is ugly and messy and nauseating, but is needed in order to make the sick well.
So, what is Rock n’ Roll therapy? Over the past few months, I have found a solace in music. As some of you know, I have always had a love affair with music. And this love has helped keep my stable and sane. Especially hard music. Bands like, Limp Bizkit, Metallica, Godsmack, Guns n Roses, Mortification, The Showdown, Chevelle, Motley Crue, Tool, (I think you get the idea.) These bands have become very therapeutic, they have become my shrink.
Hard, heavy music has helped me walk through some emotional shit. (See, there’s a swear!) There are times when screaming at the top of my lungs with thunder-crunching guitars and pounding drums kills some of the inner demons. Metal has always asked tough questions and dealt with emotional pain, but not in victimized, emo bullshit fashion. No, metal has always been about “Things may suck, but I am still going to kick it’s ass!”
So over the next few days, weeks or months, I am going to invite you with me. I am going to introduce you to songs that have helped me. Songs that have become very close friends of mine. Hell, you may even need to sit on the couch next to me.
Above all else, you will see a very rough spiritual side of me. I am a Christian, and desire to live a life that is pleasing to Christ, but sometimes, a lot of times, I don’t. At least in my mind. I have been learning a lot about grace, and the fact that there is nothing I can do to make God love me more or love me less. This is humbling. I have also learned that God can take whatever I throw at Him. And I have taken Him up on his offer. God is never afraid to back down from a fight, nor back out of a wrestling match, just ask Jacob.
So that’s pretty much it for tonight. Stick around for a while. Tonights blog has been brought to you by: